rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
-10:53 PM
.....thanks seb..Dinner in Babarino's + Wong was just fantastic. Its really fabulous.....good good good!! bravo !!....this restaurant serves fusion food. We had lamb from grill and spicy seafood pot and a dozen of oyster on tray. 6 raws and 6 with bbq baked cheese with ham.....look at that man .....dun c that it looks so delicious...raw oyster is tough man!!! not easy ....the 1st one was so so so hard to just get it over n get the taste away from my mouth. hahaha!!!(seb was laughing at my expression) It was challengin tho...nice ...i thought i can but i actually dun really enjoy it. I still prefer the baked one...so much nicer.hehehe!!! seb asked me to give it a 2nd chance...so i did....but this time i added more lemon in it. it doesn't taste so bad...hahaha!!! i quickly swallow it...another amazing thing was, i was still eating where seb adi stop and give up...its alot alot alot of food for 2 of us...freaking full but satisfy. quite scary ya ....eat so much yet so small...where are all my food ???~~~~CHEERS FOR THE NICE FOOD!!! yay!!!!!
-12:39 AM
In the stillness night,
when all already deep asleep,
tug nicely and warm under their blankie,
my heart thinks....
In this world of business
where everybody busy achieving their goals in life,
or just filling their life with the everyday routine,
my heart thinks...
Try to listen to the stillness of night
find the peaceful side of the day
which actually is the start of each day.
All of sudden,
silence feel my mind, my heart and my soul,
feeling confused,
feeling lonely,
feeling lost....
Where is my direction?
where should i head to?
where should i stand?
wat are my goals?
wat are my callings?
wat is my purpose of life?
wat should i do?
All these questions
been in my head for ages,
i know i'm trying to store it up,
trying to hide from it,
but its still there,
at the back of my head.
can't run away....
eventhough there are
friends and housemates,
brothers and sisters,
to laugh and to enjoy,
food to fill my forever calling tummy,
shoes shop that i can enter,
clothes that i can try on,
.... Still ....
i know
i know
and i know
my heart is still waiting
waiting to have
decisions, assurance, directions
God....
tell me God.....
lead me Lord....
guide me Holy Spirit....
will u please.....
.... i pray ....
Monday, June 25, 2007
-10:28 PM
On 20th June 2007
iAN made lasagna. Me just help and wash up ...isshhh!!! but anyway ....this is the 1st time i do it.... not too hard ...must try it again next time.

On the 23th June 2007
We went to Red Ants and eat ....fantastic...you people should go there n try...its one of the best in Melbourne. Its located in chinatown, opposite shark fin house. i duno wat street is tat tho..?? hahahha!!!

On the 24th June 2007
Its a happy day...me n ee went to bridge road for some shopping after church but unfortunately all the shops closed b4 we actually finish walking. So we ended up buying nothing. So we pop into DFO and saw GUESS is on sales .....SALESSSS!!!! the big word attracted us to go in and guess wat we bought.... a pair of GUESS jeans for only $........... i would only say its the happiest thing and the most worth of all shopping that i did. Me n ee were like so po ....so so so happy..We shop till they are closed. Later on we walked to docklands to explore. I actually fall in love in that place. Its really fantastically beautiful ....with the dock....the ships.....the shops.....the place is just so romantic and sentimental. How i wish that i will have a chance to stay there. May be that should be my target. hahahaa!!! piakkkk~~~ wake up pauline....dun dream ....:( hahaha!!!
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
-11:19 PM
3 happy friends outing ____:::____:::____16th June 2007 (Saturday)I woke up early in the morning at 11am and go for music interview which is at 12pm. i dunno y i was so nervous..not as if its my 1st time...may be bcoz i've not been touching my piano and practicing it.Those songs are not hard but its just ..... lost touch!! but thank God the interview this week was only verbal interview, next week is the practical one - gives me one more week to prepare but i really dunno where to get a keyboard to practice. i very pai seh to practice in church....ma fun leh ...i dunno i'm ready for this saturday anot .... anybody have a keyboard?ee and vera went pick up the car and drive to church to pick me up after my interview....when i c the car ....omg!!! so so so cuteeeeeee!!!!! so so so cute!!! i like the car...alot...hope it will be in msia soon...hahahha!!!! oh ...i havent say wat car is that ....??----- NISSAN TIIDA. hahhaha!!! so so so happy ~~the 3 lil daring gals..juz printed the map from internet and drive all the way to sorrento...dunno whether we will reach there anot. just go only ..... ee driving and i sat beside looking at the map directing, vera fall asleep at the back after eating her KFC. After goin out of the freeway, entering into those small roads....we start to a bit out of the direction that is written on the map. We cant find those roads or streets that is written there. We kept turning back from one end to another ...n ended up we just look at road signs and drive.." WHERE is the beach???" we cant even see the water.....iishhhh!!! Finally we decided to just stop by the hotspring to have a look and ask for directions. Its a nice place...the natural hotspring in melbourne. We wanted to try the public or private bath.....and the massage or facial....but ee dun wan to ....die die also she dun wan...so me n vera just walked away from the reception desk sadly :( thinking:"must come to try one day..."hahaha!!!! we took some brocheurs and leave the place. Next destination - borneo maze. We drive there and found out its closed...:(:( " where are we suppose to go next?turning right or left??" we wan to go to the beach....!!!! we just enter the eagle ridge golf club and ask an uncle for direction...thank God he gave us a clear direction and finally we can see the water!!! hahahha!!!! 
we are just at the right time to enjoy the beautiful sunset.....so amazing and its just so fantastic to walk along the dock and enjoy the cold breeze that hit ur face gently, looking at the endless wide sea with clear water and the most important is who are u with ....hehehe!!! we took pictures as u can c .... and we met an old couple on the way ....so we ask them how to get to port sea. we drove abit further to port sea and sorrento to have a look. we wanted to look for some nice cafe beside the beach and enjoy a bottle of nice wine and chat all night. but ....unfortunately....this is australia....all shop close after 5pm....iishhhh!!! geramnya....so boring.....nothing is open. So we just stop beside the road, change our shoes and went to the beach side to take pictures again. After finish snapping some beautiful shots, we get in the car n drive all the way back to melbourne. Now is my turn to drive...we really very terror la....so geng la .....we din refer to the map oh!!
Finally we reach melbourne at about 730pm...we went to AGUNG restaurant in Glenferie - indonesian cuisine....if u wan to get a satisfy meal....u can go for it ....its really good!! we order sup buntut, ikan bakar kalisan, and ayam panggang with fantastic homemade sambal...very 'chi kik' and it builts my apetite.After makan, we went to safeway to buy rice and stuff....since we got the car...just buy heavy stuff.hahaha!!! then we came back home...spent ard 20 min in finding a space to park our car...we turn so so so many rounds ard our house but still cant get one...all bcoz of its a clubbing nite. We got frustrated about it and ended up goin into DFO car park. u know how much we paid for it ?? we thought was only $8 bcoz its written there night parking is flat rate $8. but it turned out to be $28 .... me n ee were so shocked....nvm la ....so we just pay n went to church. 17th June 2007 (Sunday)Its a rainy day - not a good day to do outdoor activities, cant enjoy the scenary.So we went to chadstone to shop since i've never been there after about one year in melbourne. hahaha!!! coz i think there's nothing special about it. 1u is even much bigger than it and i can find those shops in the city too. y need to take train and change to bus to just get there n shop. i bought a pair a jeans from esprit for only 39.90 and a cute t-shirt from a children shop for 10.00. the size of the t-shirt is XS.hahaha!!!
For dinner, we book OLD KINGDOM - a place to eat peking duck with a special style. Its worth to try at least once la...not to say fantastic but its interesting to try. Its another good and satisfied meal. I've been eating nice and big meal this few days...especially dinner. We chat about a lot of wat if....this ? wat if that happened...? i'm like the criminal sitting between both of them, keep questioning me about wat if...but it was nice la....we drove back after tat. Thank God this time there is parking space just right in front of our house. The End Of The Day ....18th June 2007
Thank God its another beautiful morning, but something really bad happened in melbourne. its among the worst for the last 5 yrs in melbourne. We woke up at 815am and got prepared to sent vera to uni for her winter class...and pick up ian on the way and went back to city to return the car. After everything, ee went to work. Me n ian went ard looking for a place to have breakfast. We've got a sms from tince saying that there is a gunshot juz happened in william st and flinders lane. one killed and 2 injured. i believed the situation at that very moment is really chaotic. And this killer is on the run....he is still not caught. They only found his gun near bond st. Isn't it scary??? all the banks was close temporarily....until further notice. Can't believe there is such case happening here in melbourne...and its just near my house. But i was not really alarmed by it...my dad sms me n said: dun go out temporary becoz they have not catch the gunman. Ee's mum even ask her not to go to work. My heart was thinking : anything can happen any time any where. Its really important to commit everything to God everyday and ASK GOD to protect our goin out and coming in...must remember to do it everyday oh !!! ok...



Wednesday, June 13, 2007
-12:05 AM
day by day, months by months.....counting the days tat are left for me to say goodbye to melbourne is goin to come soon....wuahwuahaha:(can somebody help me to make time slower or wait till i had enough of everything ...???i'm gona miss everything and everybody here...miss the shopping here, cakes, food, most of all the people here....i love all of u .....u all are just so nice ~~~My beloved friends, i will try to make full use of the time here in melbourne...spending more precious time with all of u ....muaaksss...XOXO !!!
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
-10:35 PM
FINALLY ...finally .....i get to watch the Pirates of the Caribbean at World'S eND 2007Will Turner (Orlando Bloom), Elizabeth Swann (Keira Knightley) are allied with Captain Barbossa (Geoffrey Rush) in a desperate quest to free Captain Jack Sparrow (Johnny Depp) from his mind-bending trap in Davy Jones' locker, while the terrifying ghost ship, The Flying Dutchman and Davy Jones, under the control of the East India Trading Company, wreaks havoc across the Seven Seas. Navigating through treachery, betrayal and wild waters, they must forge their way to exotic Singapore and confront the cunning Chinese Pirate Sao Feng (Chow Yun-Fat). Now headed beyond the very ends of the earth, each must ultimately choose a side in a final, titanic battle, as not only their lives and fortunes, but the entire future of the freedom-loving Pirate way, hangs in the balance. many people told me its not nice ....but i think its alrite...not too bad ...not as bad as i expected....may be i like pirates ~~~ Keira Knightley is really pretty, very pretty....orlando blooms is so leng chai too....don't u think they are just perfect couple..hahaha!!!but i dun think there will be pirates 4.....too bad~~how sad....

In the middle of the show, my stomach start growling ...so so so hungry...my heart was thinking : when is the show goin to finish? quick...... it all ended at about 4pm + And we went to chappellis to have some cake...( ( cookies and cream cheesecake ) ) so creamy and thick....i can't finish the whole piece, ended up making ian eat..haha!!! he loves cake so he won't mind i think...After cake, mr.ian got to rush for work, me n albert ended up nothing to do ....went to uni watch some movies and can't stand it anymore.....went to evonne place to play cho tai dee again...hahaha!!! wu liao ~~~ on the way back to the pizza's shop, i trip again....on the same leg....i duno y, everytime walk beside albert sure will trip, he la......all his fault, bad luck~~~nvm ....i still can walk...not bleeding....hahhaa!!! we get free pizza from ian and we walk along chapel street, sit infront of the town hall....and eat our hot and yummy pizza...good job ian~~~nice pizza....but our hands are freeking cold while eating ....freeking cold.....but nicee~~~ good experience....
Monday, June 11, 2007
-2:44 PM
::MOTO::
to Do anything,
to Go anywhere,
to Eat anything,
to Try EVERYTHING..
with anybody......
things in my current list :
- travel :- gold coast, sydney, mt buller for skiing, spa in mornington, phantom of the
opera...docklands, park, the catholic church near flagstaff station...etc
- food :- korean bbq, pecking duck, the lane near my house(duno wat izit call?), torimatsu
- clubbing, bar hopping, shopping, buy brands which i cant get in msia..
- much more others...cant think of it now....
In this 2 months that i have in melbourne, i wan to meet as much people i can, go to anywhere with anybody....just wana try everything that i havent try b4.just call me .....i will sure go ...if my bank account allows me to.hahahaha!!!!
i'm gonna miss everything here.....miss everybody here alot alot alot......miss the places here...~~~i dun wan to go back ~~~ ::((((
-1:54 PM
THE BEGINNING OF MY FULL TIME HOLIDAY
OOO....party night in my house with
beverages : Bicardi, pineapple, sprite, santan...
attendance : eelain3, roy, vera, hong, albert, ian and me
time : started from 10pm - 2am(me,ian n albert), 3am + (ee, roy), 5/6am + (hong,vera)
We waited for ian to come to start the game....he made some cocktail drink with bicardi, pineapple,with santan in it....added abit of sugar, lime, and sprite...not too bad~~~albert drank and started to get red adi ....soon after tat, we started playing indian poker....crazy game~~~introduced by eelaine - everybody will be given a card and whoever has the smallest card will drink.Everybody will have a turn to pour something into the cup, either bircardi (fruit juice) or sprite. These people are really terrible....when its my turn to drink, they keep pouring bicardi....when i tot it will not be me, i pour bicardi in too....thinking that other ppl will drink...ended up ....me drinking again....~~~ shit~~~~~haih~~~ tats y play safe....just pour sprite next time.hahaha!!!! So ended up, i drank alot .....is really quite alot...but not till really hang over. IT'S FUN!!!~~~
The next morning, sunday 10.6.06 - i woke up at 9am because my head was aching. i can't sleep anymore....i woke up and make myself tea and honey. i woke the 2 guys up too ...hahah!!! we had a bit of chat together and we decided to go out for breakfast while waiting for the others to wake up. Its a beautiful sunday with blue sky, warm sun, nice weather - just perfect to go out and have a walk, enjoy the day....

as we walk along lygon street looking at those italian restaurant serving very nice breakfast make my stomach awake...my stomach is knocking on my door already. we finally decided to settle down in Brunetti for breakfast and cake. I ordered zuchinni soup with bread, ian ordered brunetti big breakfast with coffee, albert ordered some kind of sandwich....all are delicious i think. But unfortunately, my apetite went down alot due to the stress of these 3 weeks.....so sad~~~i need to built my apetite back to eat alot of delicious food.
after having a perfect breakfast, we went around looking for the global rex warehouse sales in roslyn street.we walked really far finding it, but bought nothing... so sad:( not giving up hope, we went to DFO to shop (me-hoping to get something), but ended still nothing. We then pop over to Greccos in Crown to meet up with ee. Mr.Ian, cake lover is already craving for his cake and a cup of coffee since morning. Anyway, I tried mango passionfruit cheesecake. Its fantastic...brilliant....fall in love with it....go try it !!
Saturday, June 9, 2007
-12:13 AM
wow....how can i believe that i finally finish everthing...OMGGG!!!! can somebody tell me IT IS!!! like something impossible....cannot believe it ....time flies......so fast ......
its the time to SLEEP, PLAY, EAT, SHOP, CLUB, TRAVEL and GO ALL OUT....i just wan to release ....so so so happy..cant explain the feeling...u know it, rite?
dear frens, i wan to take this chance to thank all of u who gave support to me, eventhough its just a phrase "all the best for ur finals"..or even ask "how is ur finals going?" ...thank u so much....means that u care .....i love u all....
Of coz....my great God...who hold my hand ...and uphold me and keep pushing me up when i feel like i cannot take it anymore....thank God...!!!!
June the 8th, 2007 - the memorable day ----exciting, fantastic, wonderful, beautiful, fun ....
1- ee n roy birthday 2. Everything is all DONE!!! i'm graduate-finally---my bachelor....
wow!! i'm really so happy.....Ee and roy is happy too. She got a GUESS bag ...$149, jealousnya, how nice if i got it. We also make a puzzle card for her...and ...and ..and she got a pineapple too, hahaha!!! When she opened the box expecting it to be something, but it came out to be pineapple....her mind was thinking:"wat these people are doing to me? sure got some trick 1!!! " Her face looks disappointed but she got to pretend to like it....hhahah!!! how sad~~~ :P In the end after cleanning, we finally gave her the GUESS bag..is not the one which she wanted but i think she love it too...hahaha!!! And for this special occasion, we have a special guest from monash cell, our vip guest....jan!!!! so happy to c her in our cell....having so much fun!!!

After cell group, we went out again ...to Mac Brenner in QV. We had 2 browniesm 2 waffle, 2 suckao, and one venezuela dark chocolate - all on Ee the birthday girl...hahaha!!! but one of the brownies is on me to hong ...bcoz of his playful mouth...to shut his mouth off...i promise to treat him brownies from max brenner....but he's still teasing me. So i gonna be smarter now, just let them tease as much as they want, save my money!!! hahaha!!! Its never gonna be enough of fun. So we planned to go back home and drink and play cho tai dee. We went around looking for beer, wine and stuff...but all shops are closed becoz its near 12am...On the way goin to IGA, i suddenly trip and knelt down on my knees, ouuccchh~~~~ luckily it wasn't that hard and i had my stocking on, its not bleeding! haha!! we walk one big round looking for drinks but ended up back to square 1...:( how sad....so hong and albert went back and 3 happy friends and roy walk back to 803/639, Little Bourke Street again. We are tired after one long day...but we just dun wan to go to sleep. c how notty are we....:P:P:P:P all of us stay up till about 4am in the morning chatting, buzzing songs, and cho dee for few rounds. I told ee :" when we are rushing for assignments, we stay up till so late as well, and we complained that we wan to sleep...now we have all the time to sleep, we still laze around till 4am"....hahaa!!! doinkkk~~~ question mark?????
Friday, June 1, 2007
-5:48 PM
this few days was torturing.....rushing for deadlines after deadlines.....sacrificing nights after nights in uni till late --- ended up missing the last train and need to take taxi back - wasted $15 ...haih~~~ but wat to do ...??? no car , tired, hungry, sleepy....but come to see the completion of those 2 most stressful subject, i really feel much relieve. i'm satisfy with the final result of it....i really learned a lot alot of things through all my fantastic friends. i really enjoy the company of these friends-seeing everybody is putting in their hard work to strive to finish up the task and having kind and helpful friends around to patiently teach u how to do this and that while they also need to finish up theirs.....wow!!!they are really !!!FANTASTIC!!! 2 more to go ....just 2 more ......really tak tahan adi...sometimes just feel like breaking down.God...help me !!! give me strength God...these 2 weeks i've been touch by this verse, it really builds me up alot. i keep on claim on this verse..."Your Grace is sufficient for me, Your strength is made perfect when i'm weak." God's words really have the power to comfort, to encourage, and to give u peace. I really need to thank God for sustaining me in this period of time. He is really so so so GREAT!!!
-5:33 PM
erhmm...overall was good ....ticks was all between good , very good and excellent....quite happy and satisfy about it...thank God ..:) at least can give myself a pad on the shoulder-spent sleepless nite for it .... BUT....of coz there are some comment from lecturer. She like the artistic plan that i have in my visual diary compare to the color lighting plan on my board bcoz the curve line with the white background brings out my idea stronger.~~~yea~~~true also..

Her comments was :
poetic and narration and cultured - complete + strong
sound + symbolically strong for mood and model study
overall - minimal dividers work well-sensitive approach to content and directior-poetic-beautiful themes tackled with adequate detail + well represented. your process is evident. Good Work!!!