rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Friday, July 31, 2009
-1:18 AM
i think a diary is my best fren ever...wil never ever forget u my dear.
me, pauline tan, is officially having a big burden in my heart. i dunno wat to do..where to head off next. Can someone tell me??? i've been thinking and thinking whether should i change job anot? i need another job which pays me higher. i need another job which suits my personality. A lot of people will tell me "go into sales la...tats where u can earn money. since u can talk so well, u sure can perform".... but when i think of it, YES..indeed ..y not? but where? which field? sell what? wat is my passion? i keep thinking what do i really like and wat are my passions? or should i just hantam anything and learn from there...aarrrghhh!!!! its just too hard to decide.
Its interesting to be a designer, glamorous name! but to be in the position with the pay, i dun think it can bring me anywhere. i like the job but the pay can't sustain me. i'm looking for something more. i have my target to achieve in 2 years time. i have so many things in my mind. Therefore, when one way doesn't brings u there. Am i not suppose to find another? am i too money minded?
Am i not suppose to work towards my goal? where can i get my next inspiration? all the while, i can say God really arrange and bless me with all the plans arranged for me. when i finish one, next will b ready for me to pick it up. now i felt that i'm really lost. RIGHT OR LEFT? TURN OR STAND STILL? wwaaattt am i suppose to do, God?
HOW ? WHEN ? WHERE ? i need answersssssss............
Am i goin to achieve my dreams in 2 years time? or will it be longer? i really scared that it will be delay coz i really dun c it comin. dunno y ....just dun have the confidence that it will happen. HELP ME, GOD !!!
the above matters had already been in my mind for quite a few months already and it had really bothers me and i cant really sleep well becoz of it. how? i really wan to sleep...i really need a break to think !!!!! THINK !!!!